mixed feelings

Assalamualaikum and hello!

You might think I'm in a good mood or something but well I don't. actually not at all. I'm in mixed feelings right now. I'm asking you guys, which is better 'worrying about other's feelings and not much yrself' or ' hurt someone's feelings' of course you would pick the first one, but have you hurt someone's feeling before? Some of you must have done it before, well same same. Yes of course I would pick the first one and have done the second one. I'm not being proud or something but I think I have done a lot of the first one and I ended up hurting myself. Is that good or bad? I have a twitter, but I don't normally post a tweet except for mentions only. I'm serious because I always post about my feelings and I'm worried that my tweet will hurt someone else feelings, you know. In the end, I kept all my tweets in my heart.

I'm not hating this person or something but I don't know, I just hate her attitude, I DON"T KNOW WHY I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT OTHER"S ATTITUDE. This person, my friend always hurts somebody else feelings, although she rarely hurts mine but I'm worried about the others. Like seriously, just keep it to yourself. You don't have to hurt someone else feelings, does that makes you feel good? I think so, but if you just keep it to yourself, you will forget about it and let it be. Even if you hate him/her, just hate him if you want, don't try to hurt or insult him. I'm not the one who is hurting but seeing someone else hurt make me sad, okay. I don't know why.

True friends are hard to find

That's true, but I think I'll never get one. I would rather be alone, or with my family, than you guys my friends. TRAITORS

Could you ever reply my mention or something! Even if you don't want to, just reply! Please.
Could you ever be nice to me, please don't insult me, I know I'm not that cool as you guys, but please I'm your bestfriend.
Do you guys think that when I'm mad with you guys is only a joke? Walaupun korang pujuk and I gelak, doesn't mean that I'm not mad at you.
Do you think that I'm easy. Do you ever think of my feelings, do you?
I may have not think about your feelings too, and I'm sorry.
Could we ever be happy and friendly with all the hating among our bestfriends? could we?
You might think why do I care so much, I care about it because I want to stop crying and be happy all the time instead crying throughout writing this post. I need someone, someone who cares, really really care. And I know there is one, I will always remember that Allah will ever be beside me, and whenever I think about that, my heart can finally breathe again.Thank you Allah, Alhamdulillah.

Please, I know some of you  doesn't know anything, even my friends doesn't know too. I'm sorry if I was TOO MUCH. I want to apologize to you guys, and happy reading//

Assalamualaikum :) (real smile)