boarding school

Hello,

Living in boarding school kind of sucks and enjoyable at the same time. Having such loads of jawatan there making it more sucker. Sleepy, stressy, moody and more developed there a lot for me. Since then, I swear a lot, became moody a lot, became angrier and annoying more. It changed me a lot. I cried a lot, scared a lot, and sleep a lot. You would never know.

However, theres a good thing there too. I may have hard times living with how the teachers teach, it took time for me to adapt, but well, the more time i live there, the more im used to it. It took a long time to understand, and it once made me stress and i cried bcs i didnt understand even one of it, and was disappointed as it was my fav subject.

There's no one to share my feelings, expressions with. Whats the use of starter anyway, they just hoping for foods and nice chats. If we ignored them, well burn and bo is the conclusion. I havent find any friends nor bestfriends yet. All of them are two faces people. For the fact, me too. Why cant I live the normal me there.

Im sorta out of trend and left out of everything. Wait not "sorta" but "Absolutely". I need music or something to entertain me. That calms me up and cheer me. I need entertainment, fullstop.

Leadership is killing me out. Ive never been into this kind of thing, i never wanted to be a leader bcs i dont have the skills and the hope in it. Im scared to be honest. Why does ppl believe in me, put faith on me. Would you guys be responsible towards my wrongs? Nope, even you guys were the ones who picked and volunteered me. Please, i begging you guys, dont. You guys doesnt understand me. You guys dont know me.

In conclusion, boarding school sucks, but you never know, something good might come with all your hardwork and patience. Do what must you do and never give up. Go through all of it, cause there must be something good in the end, Believe in Allah, and Allah will believe in you. Be strong, Myra Adlina.